Sunday Reflections: “There is no plan.”
On December 14th of last year, I sat in my library’s meeting room for a scheduled staff inservice on safety and security. The police officer held a question/answer session, fielding library staff questions one by one. The answer was almost always, “Call the police. We’re the experts. Let us decide. Keep yourself safe. Don’t worry if it’s a false alarm. Call the police.”
I work in a small town. It’s very nice. Quaint. People frequently ride their bikes to the library, which is near the heart of town, and leave them unlocked outside, propped against the book drop. It’s the kind of place that feels very safe.
On the other side of the country, in another quaint town that felt very safe, while we sat in the meeting room eating coffee cake from the local bakery, listening to the officer answer our questions, and looking forward to an early end of the day, Sandy Hook Elementary School was making national news in the worst possible way.
In the time since the Newtown, CT school shooting, I’ve been a part of a committee creating security plans and procedures for my library, and this past Friday, we all met back in that same meeting room again, this time to introduce the new security plan, and to be a part of an active shooter drill conducted by the local police department.
The procedure we were advised to use in the case of an active shooter is very brief. It doesn’t include many specifics. The main message is to make your best judgement and keep yourself as safe as you can, whether by hiding or escaping, notifying others if you can, but keeping yourself safe above all else.
The officer who ran the drill gave us one instruction:
This will feel very real. Do what you would do if this were real.
Of course the questions followed.
“Should we sound an alarm?”
“Do we make an announcement on the intercom?”
“What if we can’t hear it happening?”
“What if we were with children, or in a program with teens?”
“What if I’m near the exit but there are kids closer to where the shooter is?”
He repeated, “Do what you would do if this were real.”
I won’t lie. It was terrifying. It’s not that I felt that my safety was at risk – I understood intellectually that the shots fired were not harmful and that though they were loud, I wouldn’t be hurt. But the mere fact that we were drilling for this left my stomach churning and my heart racing. A situation as unimaginable yet as increasingly common as this has another layer of emotion for those of us who work with young people.
Who among us wouldn’t be torn about how best to evacuate or notify the teens in our building? What is the difference between our motivations, roles, and responsibilities as individuals with hopes and dreams and loved ones of our own, as youth-serving professionals, and as good humans?
It’s heart wrenching and sobering to contemplate. We are people hoping teens will come to us. We hope we can earn and then keep their trust. We craft our collections, programs, and spaces to make them feel comforted and welcome. We care about them. So when the answer to our questions was, “You’ll need to decide. Do what you would do if this were real,” and the officer reminded us that we are all college educated adults and need to use our best judgement when faced with difficult decisions about life and death, escape and refuge, safety and heroism, it was hard to hear.
I wanted a rule, a procedure, a plan. But there is no plan. There is only a situation and our best judgement. Unlike the officer’s reminder in December, that they are the experts, that we need not decide how best to deal with a potentially volatile situation, once the situation has flipped and the situation is volatile, it is up to each of us to act, using our own best judgement.
We can know where all of the exits and safest rooms are. We can tuck hammers and fire ladders near high windows. We can put panic buttons in easy to reach places. But we can’t make our libraries 100% secure. As the officer sagely pointed out, that’s not a place of learning and engagement; that’s a jail.
Before we adjourned for the day, a coworker with a son in middle school spoke up. She pointed out that while we all are concerned with keeping children and teens safe, and those of us who work with them specifically may feel an additional layer of professional responsibility to do so, teens and children are being equipped with their own set of survival skills. Unlike most of us adults who drilled in school for fire and weather emergencies, today’s youth are also drilling for the devastating possibility of a shooter. And just as we carry the lessons of our early drills with us everywhere, “duck and cover” “stop, drop, and roll” “stay low and go,” so will today’s youth carry the tools of our modern situation with them.
We hope they never need to use those tools. We hope we never need to make these life and death decisions.
How does your role as a youth services professional change your perspective on emergency response? Does your library have an emergency response plan?
About Karen Jensen, MLS
Karen Jensen has been a Teen Services Librarian for almost 30 years. She created TLT in 2011 and is the co-editor of The Whole Library Handbook: Teen Services with Heather Booth (ALA Editions, 2014).
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